Saturday, February 19, 2005

the soccer match today was quite cool...we played against the j3/j4s of RJ soccer team. there were 3 halves in all, and the J2s played against them first. the J2s played really well...they won 4-1 i think. then the J1s played 1 half, and we lost 3-5! but engsuan scored a wonder free kick...like from the half way line he whacked it to the top left hand corner. :O!

this weeks been pretty uneventful i guess, but i really am starting to like JC life...but i think jialun's quote was really coool, the one about looking back on laughter and crying. i really miss my RI days and cedric's current display picture really gives me a sense of nostalgia..and he admitted he missed sitting next to me. HAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :D

now there's a dilemma, i've been thinking of joining council cus its a new 'type' of CCA. my parents'd also like me to try something else besides a sport. and if i were to manage to get into council, i'd have to quit soccer. and plus, there are spaces for guys in dance SYF now, so if i were to manage to get into dance SYF (which is a really practical choice), i wouldn't be able to attend saturday soccer trainings. this would imply that i won't be able to progress much and i'd also be skipping the most fun trainings. coach wouldn't be impressed with my priorities either...so if everything works out really well, really miraculously, i'll quit soccer and hope to get into SYF and council. but im not realyl sure if i am able to undertake the responsibilities involved, cus i've not much leadership experience. i'll have to pray about it!

recently i think i've been having trouble trusting God... and this is an excerpt from mr harris which so efficiently summarises everything.

"when it comes to my 'love life', i have a nagging fear that he wants to keep my single forever. or if i fear that if He lets me marry, He'll match me up with some girl to whom I wont feel attracted to.

i know these worries are silly. in my better moments i admit i haven't based these fears on the reality of the loving caring Father in heaven that i've come to know. but even though i know He's a good God, i often allow my lack of faith to affect the way i approach this whole thing.

i fear that God might forget me. instead of trusting in His perfect timing, i often try to take things into my own hands. i grab my life's calendar from God and frantically begin to pencil in my own plans and agenda. 'God, i know your omnipotent and all that," i say, 'but i really think You missed the fact that this girl over here is my destiny. If i dont go after her now, my future will pass me by!" eventually i sheepishly hand back the scheduling of my time, energy and attention, saying " of course i trust you Lord, but i think You could use a little help' "

i think this is so true for what a lot of us face, and i think i need help in trusting God. and yet at the same time...i have this nagging desire to involve myself in a premature 'love life'.

hai.

matthew admired God's creations at 12:38 PM [comment]

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